Truly living life

Before my diagnosis, I used to pray that God would help get me through the day. As a Type A personality, I was focused on being productive, successful, and accomplishing everything on my long list of to dos. My image needed to reflect that too. It was important to me to have the right clothes and the right answers.

I don't think any human being is created for this purpose (certainly not me), so I was constantly feeling anxious, overwhelmed, and sometimes depressed. Not to say that I didn't also have a great capacity to enjoy good times. I loved (and still do) parties, outdoor music shows, good food, good drink, vacations, fashion, celebrity gossip -- and mindless magazines about all of these things. But I don't rely on them as an antidote for my daily routine.

Now, I see things differently. Thank God. I don't take my life for granted or wish days away. I actually get what a gift life is -- even when it's not easy. In that way, my brain cancer has saved my life.

Tomorrow I get the results of my latest MRI. And start chemotherapy. No matter the results, I know I will be better off than before my diagnosis. That's the beauty of truly living life. Thanks be to God.

  

Sweet kitty at 7 months

 

 

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